Ever since I sent that poem in to be judged, I’ve found it hard to write. I figured, what’s the point of writing poetry when I don’t even know if I’m good?? It was ridiculous to think that, but I’m only human. After admitting this to a good friend of mine and having a long chat about writing and insecurities, I’ve written two new poems. This sounds like great news right?? Wrong. Both my new poems are different. It’s still my writing style, however they are raw, and they have the signature of the dark corner of my mind written all over them. Typically, I weave the true meaning of my poems through red herrings. I switch back and forth between flowery, deceptive words and the bare truth. This allows my audience to interpret my poems the way they see fit. However, one of my new poems is overly blunt, and the other is far too difficult to understand. I guess my midlife crisis is starting early haha.
Anyway, I had to tell that anecdote in order to lead into the real purpose of this post. My first step forward since sending my poem in was not starting to write again. It was starting to finalize. For my birthday (my birthday was six months ago), a fellow poet friend of mine got me a really nice journal. This journal, she told me, was for my finished works. Immediately I responded by saying that no poem is ever finished. Of course being a writer herself she already knew that. However, she wanted me to write the poems that were as finished as they could be in this book. That was six months ago and finally, two minutes ago (seriously), I wrote my name in that book. At last I claimed that journal with a few unsteady ink strokes across a sturdy page. I still don’t have any poems written in there, but hey it’s a first step right??
A while back I did a few posts about branching out to new types of people. One was about gaming, one was about creativity, and one was about being a smart Alec. That was in 2013, and since then I’ve changed a lot. So I decided to talk to you guys about myself. Ugh, let me begin by telling you that I absolutely hate talking about myself. I’m awful at it, but I will try for you guys. Let’s start at the very beginning (a very good place to start). The first thing you need to know about me is that I’m a girl (in case there was any confusion there). I’m not going to disclose my appearance to you all, but I will tell you that my favorite physical feature is my green eyes. Okay, next thing is that I’m sixteen years old (that means this blog is 5 years old!!). I love to read a write (duh), but I also love to sing, snowmobile, and hike. Next need to know thing is that I’m a nerd. No, I don’t mean that I put on fake glasses, where a schoolgirl outfit, and pretend to pay videogames. I mean that I’m literally a nerd as in I excel in school, and I love learning. I’m rarely found without a book, I use words that I end up having to explain to my friends, and if someone wants to know what we should leave as a tip I will actually calculate it with proper significant figures. Also, I play Magic the Gathering (monoblack deck :p )……. Yep definitely a nerd tried and true. When I’m not nerding out (or sometimes simultaneously) I listen to music. I’m absolutely enchanted by music. I honestly can’t explain how or why, but it’s true haha. Moving on to some deeper things, my parents are divorced. I live with my mom and go to my dad’s every other weekend. It’s not easy being a Child of Divorce, but it’s my life. Alrighty, to delve deeper, I’m an INFJ (Introverted, iNtuitive, Feeling, Judging), and I will leave a link at the bottom of this post to lead you to a website that perfectly explains that. To go a tad more superficial, I volunteer a lot for several places. And I do believe that I have run out of things to say about myself. Anyway, I did this just because I gained more followers recently and I doubt that they would like to go through every single post ever attempting to find out more about the author of adviceateleven. If any of you want to know more about me just leave your question in the form of a comment on this post, and if you have a suggestion for my next post please leave a comment. That’s all for now folks.
As some of my long term followers know, I started this blog when I was eleven. Hence the name Advice at Eleven. Well years have passed and I’m sixteen now. My birthday isn’t today it was actually in October, but I just realized that I never made a post for it, and I usually do. So what’s different now that I’m sixteen?? For one, I have my driving permit. Secondly, college has become really real. I’m a junior, and when I go to college I’ll be 17. That’s just a year. It’s crazy. Enough about me being sixteen though, let’s talk about eleven year old me.
I’ve never actually told you guys about how this blog really came to be. Yes I told you why I made it, but what gave me the idea?? Well, my brother had a blog (he’s 14 years older than me) and he is an incredible writer. I mean he would take something as simple as what he ate for dinner and create a beautiful post about it that would relate to the world and it is just amazing. Well fast forward to now, he no longer updates his blog because he has two kids. Anyway, I wanted to be like him. Also, I was in tha mall food court when I came up with the name Adviceateleven. I came up wit this name because I had wanted a blog for a while and I didn’t know what I’d write about. However, that day, sitting in the food court eating Chinese food with my mom, I was pissed. I don’t remember exactly what it was but my mom was telling me a story about how some stupid person did something stupid. I must have felt pretty passionate about the issue because I sat there for an hour and just spewed out my opinion to my mom. I gave advice (that the stupid person would never hear granted) and I related the issue to my life and it was just amazing. I didn’t know that I had that in me. Next I decided that an eleven year old knew more about giving advice than that stupid person, so I came up with avdiceateleven.
Well, that is the birth story of my blog. I hope that you enjoyed it, and Happy Birthday Adviceateleven
I’ve been thinking a lot about what I want to write for my next poem and well, I’m thinking about doing a love poem. It can not be cliche though. It needs to be fresh and original, something new. Or maybe I’ll just forget the love poem…… I’m much better at depressing and inspirational poems. I also really need to continue writing my novel I am so behind. I keep saying that yet here I am, writing on my blog instead of in my novel. Eh, maybe I’ll write after breakfast, I’m hungry haha. It’s 10:10 and I haven’t gotten out of bed yet…. but I woke up at 7:00……. I also need to finish reading this book. It’s called Legend, and it is awesome. Speaking of books, I should recommend some to you guys. The Born at Midnight series is incredible. Also, I’ve been trying to read the House of Night series and it’s pretty good. Well, I need food xD okay byee. -adviceateleven