Okayyy so for those who have read some of my earliest posts, you may remember when I took classes during the summer a few years ago. I took Asian fashion classes and short story classes. Well, now I’m going back again. This time I’m taking stage combat classes!! For you who don’t know, I love acting. Sometimes in plays and movies you see two characters fight. That’s what stage combat is. It’s hitting, kicking, pinching, choking, pulling hair, stabbing, and oh so much more without actually hurting the person. Usually you don’t even touch the person. I’ve taken stage combat classes before; however these classes were shorter and taught by my middle school drama teacher. (She also happened to be my Spanish teacher.) The classes I’m taking are at a collage and I can not wait. It’s going to be so fun…….. I hope.
Of course there are the jitters and butterflies. The other kids won’t like me, I’ll actually hit someone, I’ll get made fun of, I’ll get hit. Yepp that’s just a few of the fun thoughts flying around in my head. My trick to overcome some of these thoughts, I don’t be me. It sounds weird but I’m an actress. So I just act like someone confident, or flirty or cunning. I can be whoever I want. Now there’s always a chance that someone I know will be there. In that case I be my shy, mousey self. However, I have a plan B. I wear clothes that make me feel comfortable and some-what confident. I also do my hair and makeup in ways that I like a lot.
I should tell you guys to be yourself. I should say that if you be 100% yourself, you won’t get made fun of. But I’m a teen, and I’ve been bullied for most of my life, so I know that sometimes, being yourself doesn’t work all that great. Some people don’t care if they be themself and people don’t like them. I’m so jealous of the people who don’t care. However, I do care, so I fake confidence.
Some people don’t agree with the whole fake confidence thing, but it works for me so. Anywayssss, I don’t feel like writing anymore soooooo,